At the moment im in a weird mood... Aren't I always lol...

I feel like my problems or how I feel aren't as important than other peoples. I sort of feel like I'm falling apart as time passes by.

Why is life so shit. Not always I do have to say. Thanks to my body for putting in the extra effort to get over all this shit. But this one's staying for a while.

Everything I do is so awkward. Looking at people is so awkward. All I want to do is listen to screamo in the dark or play sad songs on my electric guitar.

On top of that, if it wasn't for my fucking mother always fucking walking in on me. Are you ok Bayley, what's the bother. Turn that shit down and then you could probably hear how bad and offkey your singing is. Well fuck you bitch leave me the fuck alone and don't read what the fuck I am saying to people on msn.

And again, I can't stop fucking thinking, aaaaaahhh it's making me go insane. Fucking schitzo. I don't mean to put my body down but I feel like shit. I feel like my body and me are two different things. Me as in my thoughts. Like my thoughts are boss to my slave body. It works so hard and does so much for me but I give it this shit mood, I wish I could do better for it...

What a weird thought, I think I need councelling, lol, sorta...

I feel alone and I want to be alone. I like the dark it makes me feel better.

What are you supposed to do? Can you do anything and hope it goes away. Bottle it up. I don't want other people to know how I feel but I do so bad.

I found out a good way to deal with everything though.

BBPeake